hi people. i know the last thing i posted was a bit dramatic and  a little silly. but at the time i was feeling pretty fuc*ed up. so there. but depression and problem have passed and i am once again, a very happy, un-complex girl without any attachments. it's nice, peaceful. anyway, mOvInG On.... life has returned...as much as possible to before all the issues and i think i've decided to become a nun...but a nun without a convent. AHAHAHAH... wow weird? yeah, basically i'm refusing to date until i get out of highschool. because dating in highschool is SUICIDAL!! it's stupid. i mean not only is dating hard but added is all the stupid highschool drama and friends and the stupid walking to class thing[which I HATE] and ughhh i hate dating in general. i think. yup hate it. never wanna go near it. ever. thats what i say of coarse. problem with that though is i can't seem to make that stupid thing called 'a crush' go away. i think there's a chemical imbalance in my brain. actually i'm positive there's a chemical imbalance in my brain. there has to be for me to be this much of a freak. OH and added to the fact that i'm having a serious identity crisis because i have recently discovered i am a SUCKY writer so basically i do nothing. i have no hobbies, no talents and no idea what the fuc* i am. so there's that. summer school ends today, yay. good god i wanna get out of here. when will summer begin!!!! tomorrow. YAYAYA and dana is coming over YAYAY and sammy gets back...next week.... YAYAYAY then i get my license and the 7th harry potter book and 5th movie comes out YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY[that is me screaming and dancing in circles] did i mention i get to drive??? then i'm a junior...dam. that is so weird. i'm a junior?? huh. i am WAY too immature to be a junior. WAY WAY WAY too immature. i mean, seriously! whatever. i don't know. i'm just here. and now i'm leaving because i want to read. so have fun.......what does that mean!! a prohibited word?? am i not allowed to say cuss words... thats awkward. FINE i'll change them!